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When I was thinking of Create SMART GOALS for February, I thought of the most life-changing experience I have had recently and decided I needed to create my goals based on this experience.
I had a horrible experience on January 26, 2019. It doesn’t really matter what the exact event was, what does matter is that many people were hurt, angry, confused, and frustrated. Especially me! The next few days I tried to sort through it all, the things that were said played over and over in my head. I should have said this, I should have said that…I never once sunk into a state of depression, which is a miracle, but I was anxious and confused.
Emotions, however, are never so simple, they often require that we take a closer look in order to know what we’re dealing with and how we can best handle them.
Over and over and over it went through my mind…the faces, the words, the accusations, the voices, over and over.
I did what I thought was best and tried to reach out and make it better…I made it worse. I cried, threw things, cried. I couldn’t stop my thoughts…I needed closure, I needed apologies, I needed to talk it out, I needed to hear, “everything is okay”…that never happened.
What did happened was a life-changing moment!.
I wrote the following and posted to Facebook on January 29th:
Finding Love and Happiness in this Crazy Place Called Me
I have learned, you can’t seek love and happiness in others…you will be disappointed.
You need to seek love and happiness within yourself, and you will be amazed at the smile on your beautiful face.
This past weekend was difficult. I was not depressed, it was a totally different feeling. I had a few days of feeling anger, mistrust, sadness, unloved, unappreciated, frustrated. I cried and I tried to make sense of it all. It was this nightmare that was on replay in my mind. I was able to keep depression out of my head, but I was hurt and disappointed and unhappy.
“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life, but define yourself.”
– Harvey Fierstein
Last night, I saw through the hurt and anger and I realized (thank you, my wonderful husband, for holding me through it all)…I don’t need anyone but myself to feel loved and be happy. I chose from that moment on all I need is to love myself and love those that deserve my awesomeness! I will seek my own happiness and not let others put a wedge in-between me and my happiness. I choose to love and be happy with who I am, and not who you want me to be.
Last night at 3 am I smiled, laughed, and chose to end the nightmare in my mind, say screw it to those that hurt me, I don’t need you. I rolled over and slept like a baby with no problems.
Today, I choose to let go of those that hurt me, made me doubt myself, made me anxious, made me someone I don’t like.
Today, I choose to live my dreams with those that love me and see me as the happy, crazy, fun and loving person I am!
Today, I choose to love me above anyone else and create my happiness from within.
As I write my SMART Goals I know that I am stronger and happier than I have ever been! I am excited to see me grow as a person and I am writing my goals to help me grow this new found love for myself.
My Blog SMART Goal for February:
I truly love my blog and look forward to working on it every day. My blog is where I feel the most successful and when I am blogging I love me.
In February, I want to build my subscribers/followers by creating and sharing a post a day for the February Love Challenge, post at least one travel/food post a week, and one Blogging 101 Post a week. I can measure this through how many posts I have posted in each category and to measure my subscribers on February 1st and again on February 28th. In the end, I will be proud of myself and be able to pat myself on the back and love me.
My Health SMART Goal for February:
In February my goal is to begin exercising and eating healthy. I will start a journal on February 1st and list all my daily foods and exercises including my steps and sleep on my Fitbit. When I get healthy and stronger physically, I will love my physical self more. I can’t wait to see my new physical self in March!
My Family SMART Goal for February:
In February my family goal is to create and start a budget plan and stick to it for the remainder of the year. I will create a budget worksheet, start looking at coupons, and not spending money I don’t have. I will measure each month at the end of the month by putting all saved money in our savings account. When I am able to save a little money during February, I will be proud of myself.
My Home SMART Goal for February:
I actually have daily goals for my home, but the monthly goal will be to continue to keep my house clean and organized. Through doing my daily chores, my house will remain clutter free and clean. The only way to measure this is by using your eyes and look around…is the house clean? are the closets organized? Is the laundry completed and put away? If I keep my house clean and organized in February, I will be at ease and this will give me the mental clarity that I need to be happy.
My Love SMART Goal for February:
In February I want to learn to love myself fully. I will do this by keeping a daily inspiration jar. In this jar I will put two things a day that I am proud of about me. I will take them out on March 1st and read all the amazing things about myself from February and I will love the new me.